Over my head...

"Blessed be the God and Father of our Lord Jesus Christ, who has blessed us in Christ with every spiritual blessing in the heavenly place, even as he chose us in him before the foundations of the world, that we should be holy and blameless before him. In love he predestined us for adoption as sons through Jesus Christ, according to the purpse of his will, to the praise of his glorious grace, with which he has blessed us in the Beloved. In him we have redemption through his blood, the forgiveness of our tresspasses, according to the riches of his grace, which he lavished upon us, in all wisdom and insight making known to us the mystery of his will, according to his purpose, which he set forth in Christ as a plan for us the fullness of time, to unite all things in him, things in heaven and things on earth." Eph 1:3-10

This passage absolutly blows me away! God has had this whole thing mapped out before the beginning of time. Before he even begin to create the universe, he had us in mind. That's crazy! Think about his thought process through this whole ordeal. God thought one day that he was going to create the universe, all the stars and the galaxies, just so he could create us, even as small and insignificant as we are. And then he had to figure out a plan because he knew, before he did anything, that his prized possession, his creation, would rebel against him, we would turn our backs on our creator and spit in his face. He knew that we would think that our ways were better than his ways and we would live however we wanted. Yet for some reason, he still did it, he still created us. And then because of his character, he had to figure out some way to reconcile us back to him, to "unite all things in him, things in heaven and things on earth". So he decided that he was going to become one of us, he was going to live among us and die for his creation. He had us in mind, so that we would be able to stand in front of him, blameless, pure, holy. He must of known how much hurt, pain, grief and jealousy that it would cause him. Yet he still did it, he still went through with his entire plan. He began to create the world... All because he loved us and wanted us to experience his love, his mercy, his grace and be fully satisfied in him. I just don't get it, I have a hard time getting that type of love.

So after I'd been thinking about this passage this morning, I started listening to this song that Stepha told me to listen to on my way to school. It is called "Over My Head" by Starfield. In the words of Stephanie Albright, "Holy Buckets!" This song is unbelievable, I literally pulled over my car so I could listen more closely to the words. Here are the lyrics..

Over My Head by Starfield

After the words have all been said
After the songs are sung
I realize I've only but just begun
Trying to wrap my mind around
Extravagant love come down
Leaves me undone
Finds me with nothing to say

The reach of Your fame
The power in Your name
Your glory surrounds me
It's over my head
It's over my head
The shame of the cross
For all that it cost
This friendship astounds me
It's over my head
It's over my head

Unquenchable songs and endless praise
A million tongues poised to sing
Could still not convey
The worth that Your name deserves
Beauty for ashes
Joy for pain
Mercy instead of my blame
Ruins me for more
I'm lost in Your presence, Lord

Hallelujah...

Lost for the words to say
I'm left here in disarray
Waiting for You, waiting on truth
I've thrown reason overboard
Knowing that there's still more
I don't yet believe, I can't even perceive
I can't seem to understand
Can't seem to find my way
It's over my head, it's over my head
Learning this mystery
Trust what I cannot see
It's over my head, it's over my head
The wonder of all You've made
Foundations Your hands have laid
Bringing me back to my knees, to my knees
I'm lost for the words to say
Lost for another way
Bringing me back to my knees, to my knees
I'm lost for the words to say
Lost for another way
Ruined for anything other than Your love
I'm desperate to know You, Lord
Desperate for what's in store
Finding my hope in only You, in only You
Take me beyond this door
Lead me to something more
Open my heart up for more of You, more of You

So good!! That song totally encompasses all that I've been thinking about. I am over my head and I just don't understand that kind of love!

Here is a link to the song.. http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=TgGbxvAEqVM